sometimes..
I wish that I had a switch in my head, one that would just turn everything off. Like a light switch, I flip it once and everything just goes dark. I wouldn’t care about anything or anyone and if I felt like it, if it felt like I needed to see I could just flip it again and the lights would come on. I hate having to feel, to feel every single ounce of pain and hurt that I have. It’s the most annoying thing in the world having to feel. Because when you feel you start care about things and you worry when those things, whatever they may be, become jeopardized. And then when that thing that you were so worried was going to happen actually does and it always does, something always happens, then you feel that pain and it.is.so.aannoooooying. I think if I tried hard enough, if I believed in it enough, I could make myself have a switch…Definitely something I’m going to be trying to achieve from now on.
